On November 27,1992...there was this beautiful,smiling and a chinky-eyed fairy that was born by the two beautiful couples....They were none other than Verna Bella Homecillo and her husband Marcial Homecillo.....They were so happy when their love had resulted into a tinker bell look-alike.....They named their little fairy........."Marie Emilyn Homecillo".......
well!!!who could be expect that the little fairy is me!!!!!!yes.......Me...marie emilyn........the daughter of the two lovely couples.......Well...I know that all of you knew me already,....But there are some things that you still do not knew......Let us say...Just simple informations about me....Informations that could make your view on me into a different ones.......
My classmates and also my close friends usually describe me as a smiling, cheerful, and also a happy-go-lucky girl who always makes every people happy when they are in 
blue.....Describe me as a person that do not know how to feel loneliness and sadness...A girl that do not have problems....A girl that do not know how to cry and how to feel pain......well...maybe....they still do not know me that exactly...coz the descriptions that they used to say to me were the opposite things and attitudes I have inside......maybe they still do not know me at all....or maybe they still do not know the real me..........
The real me is not a happy person...The real me is not a kind of person who does 
not know how to cry and most especially how to feel pain....The real me is not that kind of a person who does not have problems in life..The real me is found behind the mask......The real me is hidden behind that mask.......The mask of happiness........
I am a kind of a person who feels also pains and heart breaks....A person who does not want other people to know the sadness I feel..I am a kind of a person who wants to prove to the other people that I am happy in my life....Prove that I am a contented girl.....Prove that I am strong enough to face the challenges that life had given to me.......Prove that this is me...........A happy person.....But deep inside this mask,is full of tears...Full of sadness... full of sorrows.....Full of loneliness..And most of all...Full of disappointments in life.......
Behind this mask...Is a girl longing to have happiness in life....Seeking for love and true people that really would help her in times of needs....Behind this mask is a girl whom people used to say the joker but the truth is...I am not....Sometimes I tend to think why I am born this world....Why I was chosen by GOD 
to live in this world.......sometimes I blame God why does He gave me this kind of life.......Life that is so unfair.......Life who no one cares or love me in return....But in the end..I realized that God had nothing to do with this.....Maybe this is all I can be......Maybe this is the kind of life that I should belong........Though it would really so hard to accept the fact that I am a person that just keep on pretending to be happy.......Maybe this is really me........
But what will I do??????Maybe I should accept this...accept the real me!!!
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